Film, it is.

With great disappointment and a heavy heart, I abruptly quit my job as a working student.  Things hadn't been working out for a few weeks and I was intending to put in my two weeks and be professional, but events occurred that made me unable to continue working and living there.  I am incredibly disappointed because I was ready to tackle my equestrian career, but after a lot of analyzation and introspection, I've realized that equestrianism is probably not the career path for me.  I still love riding and horses in general, but I am refocusing my energy back on film.

I am grateful that the job got me to the west coast.  I am in a place where I have alway wanted to be and the film opportunities are much greater out here than in Cincinnati.  The film community in Seattle seems to be pretty active and I look forward to becoming a part of it.

This blog will become less about horses and more about my film career and film in general.  There may be the occasional post about gaming.

Time to pour my blood, sweat, and tears into my art and not my attempt at being an athlete.

You're the best around! Nothing's going to ever keep you down.

I keep going back and forth on what I want to do with my life.  I really want to get to the Olympics for eventing in 2020, but I also really want to start on my media career.  Sometimes I think I'm wasting my time cleaning stalls and working in a barn, but I guess some time within the past two months of me doing so, I've completely forgotten that I AM working toward my Olympic goals.  I'm not going to be a working student forever and I AM going to school for my media career.  I'm NOT doing nothing like I so often feel I am.  I just feel like I'm getting nowhere.

Well, this is me kicking myself back into gear.

I haven't been riding everyday like I should be, so I'm going to start riding everyday again.  My not-horse-time is going to mainly be spent working on my schoolwork.

I'm going to stop letting myself get distracted.  I'm going to write down clear goals and stick to them.

I can do this.

Cue inspirational montage.

End All Be All

I will have officially been in Seattle for two months on August 6th.  I don't miss much about Cincinnati except for Skyline Chili (vegan, of course), HorrorHound, and my pets... and maybe only slightly my family, too.  I have been working very hard here and for the most part, I enjoy it.  However, I'm slowly coming back to the realization that horses are not my "end all be all."

Film is.

With that said, I don't plan on quitting horses or anything like that again.  I still want to compete at an upper level and maybe give lessons on the side while I'm between projects.  I love it here and I'm grateful that I finally found a job to get me to the West Coast (more specifically, the Pacific Northwest)... and I'm still not entirely sure where my decisions are taking me, but it certainly is interesting.

Sometimes, though, I just feel weird because I have all this education and experience for writing, making videos, and media and I feel like I'm wasting it.

So I've come up with a new plan for my life.  I'm going to try to work and live here on the farm until I graduate with my Bachelor's.  I might stay while I'm doing my Masters.  So that could take me from 2015 or 2016.

On my off days, I have to work on making my local film contacts in Seattle so I don't disappear.  I also need to continue working on short video projects for my Youtube and Vimeo pages.  This is all in addition to doing my homework!  I need to stay busy, stay creative, and stay functioning.

Here are some pictures from the awesome EMP Museum.

I'm really loving Seattle.  I just wish that I didn't feel so torn between horses and film all the time.  But I know now that I want to be an amateur equestrian while being a director/writer.  I can do it.  Other people do... right?  And if they don't, they aren't me.  I can do anything!

Right?